The Lord takes you through different seasons of prayer. We’ve had sweet seasons of prayer and fellowship with him, and then there have been times that have been very quiet times with the Lord.
So, prayer has always been, you pray for your meals, you pray for your sick relatives, that kind of thing. But it wasn’t until I got to my adult age where I really found that prayer is more of a connection you have with God. It’s a personal thing. You don’t just go to him asking for stuff. You go to him for for guidance and clarity for all the situations that you’re going through.
And so we start trying to have a child and it doesn’t happen the first try, or the second try, or the third try. We started to pray more and more and just talking to each other.
This isn’t really happening when we thought it was gonna happen. We had to pray and pray and pray, and it just continued not to happen.
I had gotten to the point of taking pregnancy test that it was just too painful to take another negative result.
I was not ever angry with God. But I had gotten to the point that he had to shine a light for me to realize that this dream that I’ve had my whole life, may not be the dream he has, or had, for me. That was a real big struggle that I had to come to grips with, that his goal for my life may not be a father and he needs me to understand that’s okay.
Two and a Half Years of Prayer
I got up that morning and I thought, “Well, let’s go ahead get it over with.” I took the test, brushed my teeth, and put down the toothbrush. and turned around.
I had gotten off from the fire department that morning. I came home and walked into the house to see nobody. Kathryn, I thought, was in the shower.
I thought, “I’m just gonna see only one line, yet again.”
There was a pregnancy test on the table. I thought that was odd. I went picked it up.
I looked down and there were two lines.
It was the two line one, and I knew that she was pregnant.
I literally fell down to my knees on the bathroom floor sobbing. The Lord swept me off my feet and just shocked me. The waiting was over.
Finally getting to realize all the prayers, all the time spent with Jesus in the Word and He’s gonna make our dream come true. That was incredible.